Friday, January 21, 2011

Dont go :(

I’d miss you much, while you aren’t there,

I’d look around for you – everywhere!

I so wish this wasn’t meant to be so,

I so wish, that you wouldn’t go!!

I’d wake up to a lonely dawn,

And get used to longer days, while you are gone!

As lonely as Christmas without Santa & Snow,

I so wish, that you wouldn’t go!!

The stars wouldn’t twinkle anymore,

Nights wouldn’t have any surprises in store!

For lonely & restless would my heart grow,

I so wish, that you wouldn’t go!!

Who would I look at and sheepishly stare?

Who would make me smile out of thin air?

Who’d read my worries from the creases on my brow?

I so wish that you wouldn’t go!!

Whom would I call and say sweet nothings to?

I’ll miss you so much; miss you in all I do!

I’ll miss you so much; so much I don’t know,

And I so wish that you wouldn’t go!!

Wishing so much for the day you’d be back,

I’d be waiting for you, with longingness by the stack!

You will be back, for sure I know,

Yet I so wish that you wouldn’t go!!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Wanting What I Really Want!!

“We try harder to avoid what we dislike, than achieve what we really want” … something to this effect is what’s said in The Da Vinci Code, and is one statement that has stayed with me for a long time.

As circumstances, situations and stress bears down on us, we often find ourselves bogged down and hard pressed. We’re dominated and dictated by situations, and often our lame sigh is “something’s are beyond our control” oh well indeed they are! And yet its not the situation that I am worried about, instead it’s our outlook or attitude.

There’s not a single soul around who doesn’t want happiness, but how much do we want to contribute to it? Life as it appears, we’re more & more fighting things that we’d rather avoid than go strive to find those that we actually, really want? What’s the difference? You may ask… not much indeed, but enough! Enough to shape our outlook, enough to shape the destiny of our days and the happiness in them!

Sometimes, we ought to make a decision! To leave our worries behind us, and take a leap of faith.. a leap to believe in the happiness of our life!!

It takes a decision and effort to say “no, I will not let the disappointments of the day take away the inherent happiness of my life” … there is much to thank for, much to be happy about – yes, the onion prices are hitting the roof, but mum still has just the same love when she cooks for us; yes, the internet was down for a couple of hours, but the friend next door is always there to lend a shoulder; yes, the share prices are erratic, but there’s nothing erratic in the smile of those who love us.

There are surely things beyond our control, things that get to us, that psyche us out, sure… but surely they are not the - be all and end of our lives! Step back and take a closer look, for all its troubles life has its moments of simple joys… those that we need to be careful to cherish! Lets not be too worried of the deserts in our lives… so much that we don’t enjoy the lil oasis that comes across.

Our complaints drown out the chirping of the birds, our myopic vision blurs out the morning dew! There are plenty of things the Lord provides for free & in abundance… plenty to be joyous about, plenty to thank Him for! Look around, many are unhappy because they only think of avoiding unhappiness! We need to give ourselves a break, just shift our vision, tells ourselves that we want to be happy, that nothing will rob us of our inherent happiness. Just a small change in our outlook… from avoiding what we dislike… to achieving what we really want!!

Sunday, January 9, 2011

I am only Me!!

For all I can be, I am just a me

Even if I tried, couldn’t be anyone else you see!

I love, I l care, I believe and I cry,

My logic my own, and you’d only wonder why!

‘Times I’m up, others I’m not,

Sometimes I’m hyper and can’t stop!

I am a loyal and honest friend,

Come what may I’ll be there until the end!

I am a romantic, sensual, and passionate too,

As someone I love, I share this with you!

I can be sweet and shy or sassy and bold,

I’m quite a handful, or so I’ve been told!

I am not perfect; I do have my faults,

Like when I’m scared I put up high walls!

Or I’m not as confident, as I’d sometimes like to be,

And when I’m hurt, I hurt deeply!

My heart is all my own - often misunderstood,

They say I don’t always do things for my own good!

I have many facets, like a diamond you see…

Take me as I am, for I am only me!!

Written for & dedicated to someone very very special!

@someone special: When you read this, you'll know I'm talking about you :)

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Never "In It", Just to "Win It"!!

“If winning is not everything, then why do they keep score?”
Indeed… quite logical are these words of Vince Lombardi after all. Aren’t they? If it’s not all that important where we end up, what’s the whole point of the journey we go through… of the pain and the struggle of our efforts? We might as well, just accept and be contended of our current status, isn’t it? Call it vanity or anything else you like but for the fact remains that we all play to win. Our journey is to a specific destination and not an aimless ‘its-ok-wherever-we-end up’ joyride.

We have goals that are specific, measurable and important; we try not because it’s fun but we try to take our efforts to a logical conclusion – a winning con
clusion. The accomplishment is the achievement and anything less is oblivion.

If it wasn’t about winning then you would never see the athlete burst his lungs and try to breast the victory tape before anyone else did… if victory wasn’t the pinnacle of everything you wouldn’t see a Roger Federer, an Usain Bold,
or a Sachin Tendulkar spend a zillion hours tearing the bodies to shreds trying to perfect that art that makes them better than everyone else. Competitiveness and desire to win are the sharp edges to the sword of talent they carry. For all the awesome talents of the greats of the world, if they tucked into bed easily swallowing the bitter pill of defeat we’d never see the boundaries being constantly pushed - be it any field champions never take defeat easily… it’s not ok to lose… everyone wants to be remembered.. And everyone remembers the guy who came first!

Sounds very logical, sounds very matter-of-fact, doesn't it? And yet in the hearts of hearts, I cannot begin to accept such a predicament!

If I were to look at it more poignantly… I wonder if winning is actually indeed the whole and sole destination we seek. Is it the be all and end all of things… is our efforts meaningless if they fail to produce results that are a fraction less of a competitor? If the world was all about competing wouldn’t we be just about fighting one another to death in each sphere of life? Isn’t life more about collaboration and co-existence… aren’t we made by nature to co-habit and be more of ‘intelligent being’ who learn, grow to betterment each day?

So how does this betterment come about… born with limited ability and specific skill… how can we improve? It dawns upon me that it’s not really important if we reach the destination we sought at the beginning but it’s just as important if we’ve experienced and enriched our life with the experience of the journey we’ve been through. Just as a rough-edged stone that passes through the course of the river to emerge a more rounded, smooth and appealing stone at the end of the course… just as a piece of carbon stone that comes out a diamond at the end of its journey… its important how we’ve shaped by our trials than how we are shaped by our achievements.

Winning is not the destination that we out to seek, but excellence is what we pursue and winning would be the consequence of excellence. When we try to beat the others we are limiting our abilities to just beat the guy next to us… there is every possibility that our God given ability far outwits anyone else but the cloud of competitiveness blinds our vision to look any further than a mark set by another mortal.

Moreover, winning at all costs, strips us of the values and morals that set us apart as the civilized species… what is a victory that is soaked in deceit? In an unhealthy obsession of ends justifying our means? Is that all that we look at in our champions? The best captains of our generation – Hansie Cronje… remembered no more as the meanest of skippers but as a mortal who gave in to the mammon… Tiger Woods, the greatest of champions, Ramalinga Raju one of the barons of Indian industry… all of them… they won so much in their hey day… but couldn’t win the hearts of the people!

History is replete with stories of people who never made it to where they actually wanted to… but were winners, achievers and pioneers because they tried – earnestly and thus went beyond the limits of human endurance… Christopher Columbus comes to my mind foremost… he set his sails to India… never made it but in trying and trying beyond any human had done ever before him… he set foot in a land that were to shape the course of history from there on. And today we remember this great explorer not as a lost soul but as the greatest explorer of the history!

It’s after all not winning or the destination… but the journey, its experience and excellence that make all the difference!

Monday, January 3, 2011

Invisible Mode!!

Always there,

Always around!

Here and now!

Every time,

You heard a sound!!

I was there,


Every hurdle and every bump you rode,

Just that I was in Invisible Mode!!

Always beside,

Always behind,

Time and again!

Every time,

You looked to find!

I was there,

Even in thin air!!

Every walkway and every road

Just that I was in Invisible Mode!!

Always together,

Always yours,

Now and forever!


If ever you need me,

It wouldn’t be tough to find,

Cos I’d there right behind!

Being with you, is my abode

Yet I’d always be, in Invisible Mode!!

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